Saturday, May 30, 2009

Ramblings

Isn't it wonderful to see someone you put so much effort, love and faith into, that dropped you like a bad habit - FAIL?! I know it's not the "Godly" thing to do but damn it feels good to know that even if it didn't seem like it at the time, you are better off without them in your life.

I like Jello~ Sometimes I forget how much I like Jello. Then I have some...and remember how much I DO like Jello?

Is it time for bed? I'm tired....long drive tomorrow.

If I had all of my followers from Twitter at my house they wouldn't fit. I really don't know why they are following me...am I that funny and interesting?

Why would Jon Knight get everyone all excited by saying NAKED and FLOP in back to back Tweets only to run off and leave us all hot and bothered? So unfair...

Do you feel like you are the only person in the world who loves NKOTB to the moon and back?

Why is it so easy for Donnie Wahlberg to inspire me? His words lift me up and get me going...RISE and GRIND!

I'm loving my new friends "across the pond" - They F-ing RAWK.

I never wanted to be in the Army until Jessicaca mentioned her Army and then I NEEDED to belong.

Wondering if ILAA will let me take flashcards into Meet & Greet - I always get silly stupid and can't talk to Jordan when he's near me...and there is so much I want to say.

Ok...I think that's it...I'm tired...must get sleep.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Disappointed - Broken Hearted - Dismayed

My "dad"...the man who helped give me life...claims that I have disappointed him. Excuse me? Did you not walk away from me, out of my life when I was just a child? How many times have you seen me dance? ONCE...do you hear me...ONE TIME - I've been dancing since I was 6...I'm 33 years old...was it just too hard to do? Did you EVER attend one of my school functions? Nope, sure didn't. How many times did I cry when I was a little girl because I wanted you or needed you? Too many to remember or count.

Don't you dare - DON'T YOU DARE do this to me...you have no right. You have no right to judge me...I am an amazing person...unfortunately you don't know that because you don't know me. You think you need you know me but you've missed out on who I am and what I've become.

Have I ever stopped loving you? No, I haven't...I loved you even when you broke my heart. I can't say the same for you...because there have been very few times I have truely felt loved by you.

I'm so flustered right now that I can't get my thoughts in order...I can't see through the tears...I swore a long time ago that I would never let you make me cry again...my tears have been wasted on you more than care to recall.

Talk about disappointment...I've lived with it most of my life.

Why wasn't I good enough to fight for? What made me so bad? Why couldn't you love me? Why couldn't you be proud of me? WHY!

Monday, May 25, 2009

My NKOTB sister friends...

Never in a million years did I think I would find some of my bestest friends through NKOTB…

Let me take you back to October 2008. My friend from Kindergarten and I, along with my cousin, headed to Cleveland to see NKOTB on their reunion tour. We planned on meeting up with a group of fans from the NKOTB community to do some bus stalking. Well, we got the Galleria and came across a quiet girl and her much out of loop but happy to be along for the ride husband. I’m not sure why, but we gravitated towards each other. We spent the rest of the day following each other around. Had dinner and walked to the show together. We even went so far as to wait for the buses after the show…the rest, shall we say is history. We have since been to 5 more shows together. We talk on the phone at least once a week…we are the best of friends. She gets mad at me because I’m too “out there” and I get mad at her because she doesn’t put herself “out there” enough. But, no matter what, thick or thin, we’ve got each others backs. My Heather, you know I love you and I’m sorry that I’ve bruised not only your thigh but now your ass. Please forgive me. And, don’t get mad when I push you into the arms of Donnie Wahlberg and Joey McIntyre. You deserve your time and I’m bound and determined to make sure you get it. I’m Just Sayin.

I came across this chat room welovenewkids.xat.com and there was this girl in there. She was outspoken. Had a wicked, twisted sense of humor, just like me. Thing is I didn’t think she would like me…I mean, she was from Florida and I was simply from Ohio. Sigh…how I wanted to be her friend. LUCKY ME – she wanted to be my friend too. We became fast friends. We laughed at each others jokes. We liked to pull pranks…pranks that we found hilarious but others found not quite funny at all…which made them even funnier to us…LMAO. Then, as if it couldn’t get any better, we found out we were both going on the cruise. We made a ton of plans…unfortunately Debbie Downer went with me and foiled most of them. I honestly thought that my Lisa, my wonderful Lisa, hated me. I was so afraid that I had ruined it all. Funny thing, she thought the same thing…this is how alike we are. So alike in fact that it’s creepy. I am so happy that she fell into my life when she did and only hope she stays there for years to come.

Last but not least is my NYC girl – she brings out the BITCH in me…the NYC bitch that is. Our fist meeting? The Today show in NYC. We had spoken on the phone TONS of times. We had made plans for the cruise. We shared a love for Jordan Knight. She, and her alter ego, LATOYA, have found a special place in my heart. Getting to hang with her in NYC was AMAZING. Spending time with her on the cruise was even better. Now, as if it couldn’t get any better, she thought of me when Jordan was passing out ticket to the Jones Beach show. She asked for “just 1, for a friend” and he gave it to her. Now, I get to go to Jones Beach to see the guys and in return, she is coming her to see them in Cincy & Indy. We have so got this shit.

I can’t tell you how blessed I am to have these amazing women in my life. They lift me up when I’m feeling down. They expect nothing more from me than what I’m willing to give. They love without boundaries. That is an amazing gift to be given, not once, not twice but many times over…

Saturday, May 23, 2009

My Sinatra - - - Joe Mac



Now, I'll be fair in saying that Joe was never my fave. He actually ranked towards the bottom. But, after this reunion and seeing this man perform...I have a new found and very deep affection for him.




I've always felt I was born in the wrong era...why? Well because I absolutely adore Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, Sammy Davis Jr. and Tony Bennett. Their music soothes my soul and speaks to my heart. I've never found anyone in my era who's music moved me the way theirs does. Until this reunion...when I saw Joe Mac take the stage I was mesmerized. To the point of my heart skipping a beat. I am in awe of his perfomance style. I applaude his love of the craft. His need to entertain. From that first concert, Joe Mac became MY SINATRA.




My adoration is far deeper than a "crush". Is he cute? Hell yes, there is no denying that. But no one makes me swoon the way Jordan Knight does and that will never change. I love Joe Mac in a totally different way. He is doing what I LOVE to do. He is taking the stage and touching peoples lives. I live to do that. Ok, I'm done Blah, Blah, Blahing!




Cut to Columbus, Ohio concert. I made a sign for Joe that says "Joe You Are My Sinatra". I held it up towards the end of the show, during Hangin' Tough. JOE SAW MY SIGN. Pointed to it...touched his heart and blew me a kiss. I knew that he too loved ol' blue eyes and that being compared to him would be the ultimate compliment. That was my intention. I wanted him to know that he was a legend in his own right and to keep doing what he was doing.




A month later we head to NYC for the Today show...I took my trusty sign along. I don't believe Joe saw it at the Today show but he did see it at the hotel. He pointed to it and asked what show I was at. I told him Columbus. He proceeded to TELL ME where I was sitting and WHEN he saw the sing. OMFG..Joe Mac remembered me. I was lucky enough to get a picture :D Cloud Nine doesn't describe my feelings at that moment. *Sigh*




During the picture I told Joe we would be going on the cruise. He told me it was gonna be a blast.




On the first night of the cruise our group (GROUP A) had GAME SHOW night. I took my sign. Just my way of telling Joe Mac I was there. He saw it and I put it away. :D




On the last night on the ship I was lucky enough to see Joe down the hall from us. An amazingly sweet little girl took my sign down to Joe and asked him to sign it. Joe opened the sign, looked my way and smiled. When the sign was returned I looked inside. It said "In My Dreams Joey McIntyre" My heart did a flip flop. I so adore that man. He is a performer and I love him for that. Entertaining people goes far beyond signing and dancing. You never know when someone in the audience may be having a bad day and you, with your music, touch them profoundly...make them smile, laugh or cry. No matter WHAT emotion you envoke, you make them FEEL and that in and of itself is a precious gift.




So, THANK YOU Joe Mac, for being my Sinatra. For touching my heart...lifting my spirit and making me FEEL.




As Always,


Kelly




Thursday, May 21, 2009

Jon Knight - the Cruise Edition


La, La, La, La, La, La JON KNIGHT!

My take on Jonathan R. Knight – the Cruise edition!

Did I expect to see Jon Knight out and about unless he was EXPECTED to be somewhere? Hell to the no. I expected him to keep a low profile. You know, stay out of the stalker eye. Boy was I wrong.

I came to expect certain things from him on the cruise…looked forward to them in fact. Every morning Jon would come out of his cabin, look our way down the hall and say “Good Morning Ladies.” Or “Hello ladies how are you?” Did he HAVE to do this? Nope, sure didn’t but he did which made me love him even more.

Every time he walked past our door he would say “Hello”. Every time he saw us out and about on the ship he would say “Hello” or simply “Hey”. It was just so…so…NORMAL. I think we all have a habit of thinking that these guys are something other than human…being with them in this setting really shows you just how REAL they are.

One evening in particular, the last night on the ship, we went to the buffet to grab some dinner. We missed ours because we were standing in line for our concert (Bwahahahaha – had to have a good seat ya know?). I decided not to sit at “our” table but took another table closer to the back of the room. The rest of my girls soon followed. We were all enjoying our dinner when BAM, out of nowhere, Jon Knight appears at the 24 Hour Pizzeria. He says “What’s good?” My friend, Kim, says “We had the pan pizza last night. It was really good.” Jon says “The Pan?” turns and orders the pan. He attempted to head out the deck to eat only to find that it was closed for cleaning. So, he took the table next to ours. We continued to eat but the vultures appeared. It was ridiculous. They wouldn’t even let the man eat. I felt so bad. I know everyone wanted an autograph or a photo or just to say hi but come on, can’t the man eat his dinner in peace? Once he finished his slice of pizza he decided he was still hungry and went for a burger. Back at the table he decided to dig in IMMEDIATELY, apparently he was very hungry. I couldn’t help but notice that he got ketchup on his face. He looked for a napkin and there wasn’t one on the table. So, he did what any NORMAL person would do and wiped the ketchup on his jeans. The mom in me went nuts. I immediately got up, walked to where the wrapped silverware was and grabbed Jon a set. Walked over and very politely said “You look like you could use a napkin.” And simply walked away…but not before he said “THANK YOU”.

To me, that was the PERFECT Jon Knight moment. It was one I certainly won’t forget. That and sharing our coffee on the balcony to our cabins in the morning. ;)

Jon, I hope you did not mind my intrusion…I just NEEDED you to have a napkin. Please forgive me.

Kelly (Napkin Girl)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

My Jordan Knight Cruise Blog

Topic - Jordan Knight



Location - The SS NKOTB (AKA: The Carnival Imagination)



From my previous blog you know that we were lucky enough to be in the same hall as the guys. You also read that I was "overwhelmed" to say the least when I saw Jordan walking down the hall...that I turned into a puddle of goo when he gave me a rose.



Here are a couple things you don't know.



During the "Game Show" they kept playing songs from THE BLOCK in between questions and the guys were singing. Jordan was really getting into one of the songs. I was mesmerized by him...just staring...he looked down at me and sang a line (I do believe it was from Sexify My Love). My eyes got huge. My hand flew to my heart and I said "OH - MY - GOD" to which Mr. Jordan Knight laughed hysterically.



Cut to the "Photo Op". I decided NOT to stand next to Jordan...but to stand with Danny (BIG MISTAKE). I walk in and right before our group Jordan had decided to stand instead of sit which meant I had to walk PAST him to get to Danny. Though I was wearing a "DANNY'S DIVA" shirt, my heart skipped a beat and I was obvious in the fact that I am and always will be a Jordan girl. I looked him in the eyes and went "huh....huh...huh...(breath caught in throat almost died...true story)" He smiled that amazing JK smile and gave me a little laugh.



Last but certainly NOT least was the concert. Second row...Jordan played to our end of the stage and I was loving it. He was standing right in front of me at one point and I was just locked on him. Singing and dancing...having a grand old time. I look up and see Danny's daughter looking at me...she laughed and then looked at Jordan and blew him a kiss...she is a doll.



Not once,but TWICE Jordan noticed my shirt's. Got a "1,2,3 point" from him to me, Latanya and Lisa for our "3" Girls, "3" States, "1" Love Jordan Knight shirts at the Sail Away party. Got eye contact and a great point, nod and smile from him for my OMFG I LOVE J. N. M. K. shirt



All in all Jordan Knight was EVERYTHING I wanted him to be and more. Smiling...laughing...being real and it made me love him even more. Now, I just need a picture of me and Jordan Knight. *sigh*



So, Jordan, thank you from the bottom of this Jordan girls heart...I adore you. See you in 3 weeks.


Tuesday, May 19, 2009

NKOTB Cruise Blog - Part 1

This is MY experience on the SS NKOTB - all views are MY own - I DO NOT speak for everyone.


With that said - THE CRUISE WAS OUT OF THIS WORLD. These men, these 5 amazing men, gave more of themselves than we ever could ask for or SHOULD ask for. They went above and beyond in so many ways. They just GAVE it all.


The first day on the boat was so exciting...getting on board. Seeing everyone. Meeting friends I've waited, what seems like forever, to meet. Getting to our cabin only to realize that HOLY CRAP we were on the same floor as them. *fell on floor, thud, thud, thud, thud, thud (one for each New Kid)* Hung out in the hall while ycabin mates got ready. Looked to my left - OH MY GOD it's Jordan. Did I wave? No. Did I scream? No. Did I pass out? No. What DID I do you ask? Well I stood there with my hand over my mouth saying, only loud enough for me to hear, "It's Jordan, It's Jordan, It's Jordan, It's Jordan". To my dismay he turned my direction to see me standing there dumbfounded. He did however smile that winning JK smile and I almost fell on the floor.

We finally got up to the deck for the send off party - it was HOT! The guys looked amazing. They were smiling and laughing and just playing to the crowd. We were eating it up. Latanya, Lisa and I had on our "ONE LOVE" shirts for Jordan. He saw them, pointed, smiled and gave us an "oh yeah" nod. Pure heaven for any Jordan girl.




Next it was dinner time - YUM! The wait staff did a performance to NKOTB...it was HOT! THEN, it was GAME SHOW time - we had just enough time to run upstairs, put on our jammies and get in line. Glad we got there when we did. We had FRONT ROW seats. It was amazing. The answers the guys gave were HYSTERICAL! Joe's answer for everything was "BALLS" and he was doing a killer impression of Elvis, with the help of Donnie, all night long. The guys were all smiles and laughs. It was great to see them this way - it made them that much more REAL. At the end of the show Jordan was throwing out roses. When he got to our end of the stage I looked up and said "Jordan, just one, right here." To which he kissed a rose, handed it to me and smiled. Talk about MELTING...I melted...warm puddle of goo...or was that...NEVER MIND (LMAO)!

Once the game show ended we headed up to the deck party for FREE drinks and dancing...hella hot and an AMAZING time. I was up top when Donnie was making his way to the VIP area...I got a KILLER D-Dub hug. You know how he does, just lingers long enough to make you want more? Yep, that's the one I'm talking about. I think I finally fell into bed around 3:30 AM...what a way to kick off the cruise.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

THE YUMMY MUMMY BUS RIDES AGAIN

Yep, Kim and I are headed up too Akron to meet Heather and the Yummy Mummy Bus (along with a naive' blockhead named Jen who has NO idea what she is getting into), and heading our happy little tooshes to NYC to see the New Kids perform on the TODAY show.

This appearance will mark the 1 year anniversary of their reunion. Couldn't POSSIBLY miss this occasion for a million years. Well actually I almost did...Donnie was Tweeting and Tweeting about it and I was able to resist his temptations but then, Jordan had to go and say "PLEASE". That is like so unfair...I was beyond resistance at that word...asked the boss and got the ok to miss a day. Finally was able to say "Let's Get This"...and we shall...

NYC, the Block and a wonderful group of women who love these guys as much as I do...what more can a girl ask for? A little Facetime? I'm ok without it...just glad to be a part of it...