That this would be my life. That I would be the one left to watch my grams die. That I would be the one that would become her caregiver. That I would always be the one. I can honestly say that my mother would disappoint me like she has, more so, that my whole FAMILY would disappoint me like this...they just left me high and dry...I never imagined...
I am the one that helps...I do what I need to do to make things work which leaves very little time for me...I have no time to take care of myself. I am heavier than I have ever been and I'm just SO tired that I don't work out...I eat food that's bad for me and I just keep getting fatter...I'm depressed most of the time...I can honestly say I HATE ME LIFE...actually, I HATE not having a life.
I thought this would be longer...but it looks like I got it all out pretty quickly...
Monday, December 7, 2009
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